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I AM SERIOUSLY SICK TO MY STOMACH FROM APOLOGIES FROM PEOPLE WHO HAVE FUCKED ME OVER. FUCK THAT & FUCK YOU.

I think I hate you, for the person you are. I don’t think I literally hate anyone… Except for you. Congrats. Remember about 3 or 4 years back, or even maybe 2 years back, or maybe even just recently, yea im going to forget that completely. Not everyone believes that I can erase my own memory… And that’s all you’ll ever be. You have this easy way of always being able to come back around every now and then, and always making me feel like the bad person. You have this way with words that just drags people along. Your charming and sweet and you felt comfortable. And for those reasons alone, I hate you even more.

I’ve felt like this horrible person for years because of you, I’ve felt guilty and responsible, and had a constant “what if” in the back of my mind. I’ve wasted time feeling that way. Your really a waste of my time in general.

… And really maybe it’s this weather that makes me in such a horrible mood,cause I’m never usually this hateful.

I made a fool of myself last night, effortlessly. Sometimes I can’t control the words coming out of my mouth, only to regret them later…

OHHH and not to mention, I let you once again get the best of me. I thought that maybe this is your way of getting back at me for the past.. But maybe that’s just the kind of person you are. Yea, that sounds about right. Drag me along some more please… It really is so much fun. Fuck that shit.